A Year Without the Scale

Monday, May 24, 2010

--MOVED--

I have moved to wordpress! I like it better. :)

http://ayearwithoutthescale.wordpress.com/

see you there!

It's the last Monday of the school year! Yes!!

I'm trying to eat light and healthy to detox from an indulgent weekend. The weekend itself wasn't that bad--we savored a lot of delicious treats from awesome restaurants in Lewes--but Sunday was tough. Once I open up the carbs-door, sometimes I just can't stop. I didn't really enjoy anything I ate either--it was a bit manic, which I'm upset about because I thought I was "over" that. I felt so steady and peaceful eating on the cleanse, so I am pumped that John and I are going to do our own cleanse in June through a program at his gym. We are meeting for dinner later to chat about it, so I'll post more details then...

Breakfast was healthy and inspired by the Green Monster Movement.

Recipe

-a few handfuls of spinach

-3/4 cup of Soy Milk

-1 banana

-a smattering of blackberries

-flax oil

-Chia seeds

-Amazing Grass Wheat Grass

Mmmm! I never thought I'd like this stuff!!

Yes, it looks like sludge but it tastes awesome!

I obviously still need to work on my blogging skills, but I'm getting there.

It's the last Monday of the school year! Yes!!

I don't have the superfancy glasses and set-ups like other bloggers. I just throw my GM into my WHYY thermos and get off to school. I'm sure the kids are wondering what I'm throwing back as I proctor the library in the morning. Shhhh!!!!

and lots of water today. I need to get rid of that sludgy, post-too-many-carbs feeling. Ugh.

Back to grading. Not much time left!!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Who is Heather?

Hi, my name is Heather, and this is (duh) my blog. I have been inspired by a lot of wonderful women out there in the blogosphere who have created AMAZING blogs that focus on leading a balanced life. For a long time, I had no concept of how I could lead a balanced life in regard to food, exercise, work, and play. I am an all-or-nothing person, and despite (or because of?) this tough attitude, I have been overweight from about age 10 onward. I had a few breaks in there where I lost weight, but I never did it in a healthy way. Even when I deceived myself into thinking that my methods were healthy, they often resulted in self-loathing and restriction, and when that loathing and restricted got so bad I couldn't take it... I gave up.

This year, I have met a wonderful man, settled into my third year of teaching, and relaxed. I decided to stop trying to lose 20 pounds in two weeks and giving up 5 days into the attempt, but to aim to lose 20 pounds by the end of the school year. I started my journey on September 14, 2009, and reached my goal on May 8, 2010. I was helped to reach my goal by participating in a Cleanse that focused on eating whole foods and fresh foods, and I felt powerful and successful on this cleanse...

However, the cleanse ended on May 15, 2010, and while I didn't immediately go back to my "Old Ways" I definitely indulged a little bit and saw the scale shoot up--temporarily I'm assuming, but at that moment I felt horrible. I felt that all the progress I had made all year and during the cleanse was melting away. I felt like a big fat failure--and I hated it! I thought, "Why am I letting the scale control how I feel about myself?" and I decided to get rid of it and keep a blog about my experiences.

I still want to weigh myself. I don't know how to feel about my body's current state. I don't feel as confident as I was feeling during the cleanse. I have succeeded at eating fairly healthfully, but I still feel heavier...

However, I don't want to live my life at the mercy of some number.

My goal for the next year is to learn my hunger and full signals, to reach for whole grains and fresh foods, and to treat my body with respect.

Compared to a lot of other blogs out there, I know that mine isn't superimpressive---yet! I'll get there.

Thanks for following me on this journey.